Living From I AM is a written and audio series exploring what remains when familiar ideas about faith, belief, success, and certainty begin to fall away.

This first chapter, What Is Faith?, is shared as a free sample.

It does not offer teaching, instruction, or answers. It does not attempt to persuade, convert, or resolve theological questions. Instead, it traces a personal moment of rupture: the point at which a long-held understanding of faith stopped working, and something quieter, more grounded, began to emerge in its place.

This chapter began with a simple but uncomfortable question: Do I actually have faith?

For many years, faith was understood as certainty. Belief without doubt. Trust that outcomes would eventually align with effort, prayer, or right living. Faith was something expected to produce results, whether materially, emotionally, or spiritually. And when those results did not appear, the only explanation seemed to be personal failure: not believing hard enough, not trusting deeply enough, not surrendering fully enough.

What Is Faith? explores what happens when that framework starts to collapse.

It looks at the quiet disappointment that can build when life does not unfold as promised, even after years of commitment, devotion, or effort. It examines the subtle self-blame that often follows, the sense that something must be wrong with you if the expected outcomes never arrive.

Rather than trying to repair that framework, this chapter allows it to break.

The writing follows a slow movement away from faith as performance, bargaining, or belief in guaranteed outcomes, and toward faith as something less dramatic but more stable: presence. Inner steadiness. The ability to remain grounded even when circumstances do not align with expectations.

This chapter does not reject spirituality, nor does it promote religion or manifestation. It sits outside those categories. It is concerned with lived experience rather than belief systems, and with internal orientation rather than external results.

Readers and listeners may recognise themselves in the questions raised here:

– What happens when the life you were promised never materialises?
– What if faith is not about certainty at all?
– What if belief, hope, and effort are not the same thing as faith?
– What remains when outcomes stop defining whether you are “doing it right”?

Living From I AM is not a programme and not a structured course. There is no set release schedule and no fixed number of chapters. Each chapter is released only when it feels complete, allowing the work to remain honest rather than rushed.

Chapter 1 is offered as a free sample so readers and listeners can experience the tone and pace of the series before deciding whether to continue.

Future chapters will be released individually and made available for purchase. Each chapter stands alone, but together they form a broader exploration of identity, presence, and what it means to live without outsourcing meaning or worth to belief systems, outcomes, or future states.

This work is best approached slowly. It is not designed for quick consumption or passive scrolling. Some readers may prefer to listen first, others to read, and others to return to the chapter more than once over time.

There is no expectation of agreement. There is no attempt to convince. This is simply an invitation to sit with a line of inquiry and notice what arises.

If you are drawn to questions around faith, presence, and identity, particularly if familiar spiritual frameworks no longer feel sufficient, this chapter may resonate.

Chapter 1 is shared as a free sample. Future chapters in the Living From I AM series will be released individually and available to purchase at £4.99 each.